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Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Six Months of Missing Mariah

One day...

One day I will put ribbons and bows in her hair, and not flowers on her grave.
One day I will cradle her warm body in my arms instead of her empty blankets.
One day I will lay her ever so gently down to bed instead of crying myself to sleep in my pillow.
One day I will look into her beautiful eyes for the first time, and she will sleep no more.

But it's not today.

This is today.


And it is still just so hard.

So today I will hold on a little longer. And tomorrow I will do it again.
Today I will remember that the Lord loves me. And tomorrow I will do it again.
Today I will love Him, too, for “eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him” and wait for Him. (1 Corinthians 2:9).
Today I will smile and hug and love on Mariah's brothers and sisters, and help them love God, too.
Today I will remember with every thought of her, that Heavenly Father is working something good for me.
And tomorrow I will do it again.

Because one day, the Lord will dry all my tears, and take away all my sorrows.
One day.
We miss you so much, sweet darling Mariah, and love you even more. Forever.

12 comments:

Cothran Family said...

One day we want to be there with you to hug our sweet angel Mariah and today we pray for our sweet Washburn mama and family. Thinking of you...always

Rae said...

You guys have been on my mind all day. How I wish I was right around the corner to hug you all and let you know how much I love you.

As I mentioned in my blog today, there's not a day that goes by that we don't think of our Angel baby.

Know that you're always in our thoughts and prayers...and that I'm hugging you from here. I hope you feel it.

Megan and Jonny said...

I've been thinking about you and keeping you in my prayers the last few days. She's so beautiful, and it breaks my heart to see you miss her. I'm always here if you need me!

Catherine said...

I meant to call you yesterday and ran out of time. I'm glad I got a chance to hug you on Sunday! I love you!

seven smiles said...

Wow, Catherine. That was beautiful.
Thinking of you.

Katherine and Andrew Bettilyon said...

I love you all and I know that it's true, one day you will hold your sweet baby.

Dawn said...

Every time I see Mariah's pictures I think she is so beautiful. I know you miss her terribly. ((hugs)) 6 months is a long time yet not so long.

Lynne said...

Yes, sweet daughter, one day........ How I love you and miss being able to hold you as well and..........one day! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

amber said...

Thinking of you all day yesterday. Love and kisses.

The Washburns said...

This is really beautiful. We love baby Mariah and know you will hold her one day too. You are in our prayers and hearts.

mom2beachbums said...

My heart aches and eyes overcome with tears as I read your tender experience and see the precious fotos of your pretty little Mariah. Lots of loving thoughts and prayers coming your way ~ hang in there friend.

Likely said...

I don't know how you find the strength. Your experience is one of the hardest struggles I can imagine. losing a child is just an unbearable thought.

Thank the Lord for the Gospel of Jesus Christ, for his infinite love and his wonderful plan.

much much love to you and your family.